Tuesday, December 3, 2013

What am I here for?

       I started this blog a few years back in order to review the free books I received from several different companies. A month or so ago the church I attend began a new lecture series called “What on Earth am I here for?” The moment I heard this title I decided that I had to restart my blog and name it based off this title. So here I am writing this blog and hopefully many more to come.

        About a year ago I graduated with a bachelor’s degree in Environmental Science from Biola University. Since then I have been struggling with the idea of what my purpose is in life. Most of my life I have been a student, from preschool until last December. I have not known anything else. A few months, before I graduated, I decided I was going to take a year off to see how things went, without being a student. I wanted to use this time to recharge, to take the GRE and to apply to graduate schools. By the time graduation rolled around I had experienced the most stressful, tough semester of my college career and I was ready for a break, ready to be done with homework and organic chemistry and 15 page essays and I welcomed the solace a year off would bring me. A few months in however, I came to a realization that I missed school. I missed the homework, the lectures, and the terribly boring textbooks. I missed chatting with the professors and stressing over the insane science exams and research papers with my environmental science friends. But most importantly I missed the LEARNING. After reflecting upon this it dawned on me that I absolutely LOVE being a student. If I could be a student the rest of my life I would, as strange as that sounds. This is when I decided that I absolutely had to get into graduate school. I had always talked about eventually earning my masters, but it was more of a passing though.

        This year off has also gotten me thinking about what my purpose actually is in life. For what great and awesome purpose did God create me for at the beginning of time? In truth, I do not know the answer to this question. For months I have been at a loss to where I am going in life. I am currently waiting to hear back from the University of Nevada, Reno for acceptance into their Natural Resources and Environmental Science master’s program that starts this January. The spring semester starts in about two months and I still have not heard anything back. Because of this, my next step in life is completely up in the air and subject to change at a moment’s notice. But, it is during these times that I have learned to rely on and trust God the most, and I know that He has a plan even if I do not, and that where one door closes another will open. So, with my sudden gain of excessive free time, I have decided to start blogging as often as possible, because quite honestly I am really just enjoying writing again.

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